Self-Untitled by Samantha Geballe

Self-Untitled is an on-going self-portrait series that aims at establishing connection through vulnerability, and combating the shame that separates us from one another. Shame can be understood as the fear of disconnection.
Self-Untitled / Samantha Geballe

Self-Untitled is an on-going self-portrait series that aims at establishing connection through vulnerability, and combating the shame that separates us from one another. Shame can be understood as the fear of disconnection.

I use myself as a model and in every image attempt to show my authentic self by exposing insecurities, fears, and inner struggle. I try to photograph the imperfect as beautiful, showing others that they can push past fear as well. I ask myself, what is scary about showing myself to others? If others do not like me, does that make me a bad person? Am I worthy of love? Am I seen? Am I important? Courage comes from the Latin word coer, meaning – heart. The definition being, to tell the story of who you are with your whole heart. I use photography as a means to let go of who I think I am, to allow the space for me to be my authentic self. What makes us vulnerable, makes us beautiful.

This is not another fat kid’s story.  There are times when I do assume that role but it does not define me.  I don’t have the body I have for no reason but it would be all too easy to extend blame.  What people don’t often see are the functions of obesity.  I hide behind my size, mask vulnerabilities, and create walls as a way to protect myself.  Something I have learned and portray in my art is that being vulnerable and forming connection have created new function and even healing.  I share my body and my story not as a way to seek pity or define myself as a number, but as a venue for a viewer to say “I’ve been there too.”

Self-Untitled / Samantha Geballe

Self-Untitled / Samantha Geballe
Self-Untitled / Samantha Geballe

I take self-portraits as a way to reverse perspective from how I see myself to my interpretation of how I am seen by others.  This body of work represents the feeling that interpretation provokes.  This work does not exclusively relate to obesity or size.  It is also about misuse of a human and not being seen as such.  This is a body of work that requires fearlessness.  I have had to set my fears aside in order to convey my intended message.  I think judgment derives from lack of information, meaning – when we don’t know the whole story, we fill in the missing pieces with our own knowledge.  I think the reason we fight as a community is that we dissociate from humanity, not allowing ourselves to really know a person is a person. Regardless of appearance, everyone has been made to feel small at some point.  My hope is to generate a relationship between myself and others through my work and I ask you, as a viewer, to look for the similarities instead of the differences.

Self-Untitled / Samantha Geballe
Self-Untitled / Samantha Geballe

A shift happened. I wasn’t expecting it and then I saw it start to happen. I tried to stop it and I couldn’t… and then it was just here. And that is when my feelings about the work changed.
Here’s how it happened: When I began my self-portrait series, it was an expression of my pain and anger, a journey through self-acceptance, and a way to bridge the gap between myself and others.  Now that I feel like less of a target, I can see that I photographed myself to cope. It made me feel better.

Self-Untitled / Samantha Geballe
Self-Untitled / Samantha Geballe

I am realizing that this series helped me process my own denial about my eating disorder.  I had once again lost control of my weight/eating and unknowingly, my dysfunction became my muse.  This insight is what I initially resisted. I didn’t know if I was ready to move away from feeling angry.  It felt good to scream as loud as I could in a silent photograph. I am upset about that phase ending, but it is over. I try to go back and can’t. It doesn’t feel real anymore.

I don’t want it to seem like my “shift” happened because I had gastric bypass. It honestly just materialized that way.  My life looks radically different now than it did before surgery and I’m realizing it will look radically different again soon.  A new chapter is beginning in my life and I have to embrace it whether I like it or not. This is the direction of my work.
There is absolutely no denying the fact that life is easier at a smaller, healthier size.  I feel privileged to be able to cross my legs.  And not worry so much about seating situations, fitting in chairs, and fitting in general.  The world felt unmanageable at that size.  If only I had known then that it would all change and I would still be myself.

Self-Untitled / Samantha Geballe
Self-Untitled / Samantha Geballe

This phase of self-portrait work is about embracing change.  It’s about learning to navigate life without the dysfunction and defense of excess weight.  It’s about learning to live in a new body.  It’s about awareness of time and what changes time will bring.  The weight has been a distraction from life.  It’s easy to lose sight of priorities when size monopolizes your daily living. As this series has started to develop, so has my clarity. After surgery, everyone thought I would just be happy and all my problems would disappear. The odd thing is that I feel left with myself now more than ever. There’s no fantasy or smoke and mirrors. It’s just real.

Self-Untitled / Samantha Geballe
Self-Untitled / Samantha Geballe

About Samantha Geballe

Samantha Geballe, a California native, was born and raised just outside of San Francisco in a small town called Woodside. Art is an interest of her family’s but that is not what propelled Samantha to create. Her ability to express herself through creative form is in her nature and she has been producing art in many different mediums since early childhood.

Currently, Samantha’s work focuses on conceptual portraiture, allowing her to explore human emotion from the inside out. She is working on an on-going self-portrait series focused on body image and healing that challenges viewers to question what is means to accept oneself. Samantha is based in Los Angeles, CA. [Official Website]

Self-Untitled / Samantha Geballe
Self-Untitled / Samantha Geballe

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